I’ve been a cautious person in general for as long as I can remember. However, I’ve always felt that I’m immune to the realities of growing up. I felt I could circumvent these outcomes with time management, discipline and control. Incredibly naive of me.
- Family getting older
- I can minimise impact by controlling their lives and habits
- Losing touch with friends/family once I move to a different city
- I will never tire. I could frequenly hop between Chennai and Bangalore
- I will create a rotation and talk to every friend group
- Hadn’t seen death
- Overly optimistic about the time taken to accomplish goals
- Will just work harder for a few more months and then I can go back to balanced life
Also, time and again I’ve failed to change myself, what made me think I could change others 😅?
This approach (call it Mr Sunshine or delusional living) hadn’t worked with teenage Abhirath and neither is it working now. Why do I cling to this mechanism? Have I just been trying to avoid the truth? I can’t have everything, heck even the few most important things in life are really difficult to acquire and maintain, it’s time to grow up.